my life is better than your life.

why is it that most people (myself included) that talk boldly about how life isn't all about money spend so much time coverting expensive cars, the latest fashion in whatever and massive houses? are we simply trying to make ourselves feel better about 'our lot in life'? are we really so insecure about our own lives and the choices we have made that we have to put down someone we see because they drive a $200,000 car and yet sometimes secretly wish we were behind the wheel. (think fightclub. for all the talk about people's stupid want for better and more, the main character imagined he was a massively better 'him' in control of all he saw.)

it all comes down to what you want from life. what relationship. what belongings. what 'success' yardstick you measure by. it's a difficult one to answer. you think you know what you want from life and yet spend a great deal of time wanting to upsize. bigger. better. faster. when you've grabbed the next whatever you suddenly what the next one before it's even available. vicious cycle and one that 'aint going to end well for anyone but the company that makes it.

presently the main measurement of 'success' is financial, in western civilisation anyways. the spirtual has taken a back seat so far away it's in the boot eyeing off the tyre-iron. happiness is almost irrelevant yet when people are asked point-blank they will say that their happiness is one of the most important just equal with or slightly behind financial security. financial security, that's a funny one. i'd call financial security the ability to cover all your needs easily and allow you to live life without the stress of wondering constantly about food, shelter and the ability to clothe yourself. there is a massive difference between it and the ability to buy all the stuff you want and eat out every night. yet when we see those that can do that, we covet and proclaim their life to be so much more superficial than your own (not always and not everyone, this is just my experience and thoughts). if you're so much better and deeper than that why do you want it? tough question. i don't have an answer.

i guess the good thing is that people are always striving to be better and to do more, for whatever reasons. that drive in us is the reason we're not still walking around naked banging rocks together. england would be a massively over-populated hole by now if 'whitey' hadn't set out on a voyage of discovery for better places to set-up prisons. the only thing is people need to spend more time thinking about what they really want out of this trip around the mortal coil. honestly think what they want rather than be told by tv advertising or friend's and neighbours. it's something you have to address everyday to tackle effectively. it's a hard thing to do but would certainly help the majority. it helps me. sometimes.

now where's that audi tt of mine...

quote for the day:
"Only in America would there be a guy that cocaine wasn't good enough for. You know? One guy walking around New York City back in 1985 going, "You know, that cocaine's pretty good, but I want something that makes my heart explode as soon as I smoke it, ok? I want to take one suck off that crack pipe and go *snort* *splat* Now I'm happy! I'm dead, the ultimate high!" - Dennis Leary