25 October 2005

reconcile

There are quite a few confusing and conflicting elements to the human condition. They seem to raise their head's collectively as well as individually during the course of your life. A few, kind of hang around the whole time, not strictly obvious but always present.

An interesting one I find myself continually bouncing between is the gulf that exists between who you are, who you're meant to be and who you wish you could be. It can get pretty ugly at times. Most often the main cause of effect is part A. Few people are entirely happy with the person they are. This trait at least pushes us to become better than we are, although it also creates anger and a sense of worthlessness in people who don't have the strength to push themselves beyond their own comfort bubble.

I'm no believer in 'destiny' as many people perceive it. I don't believe that everything has all been mapped out for us. To simply be bit-part actors in our own lives. I believe that on a genetic level you have a path to follow. A pre-ordained series of preferences. Why else do we like one style of anything to another? Why do you prefer to follow a certain career path? Or no path? Why are you a particular sexuality or in fact why have any personality at all if we're simply here to propagate a species with no direction short of populating the patch of universe we exist in? I think that you have a set of personal rules and guidelines that when followed lead you closer to your own purpose. I've always felt right and wrong when I knew that I was either doing what I'm meant to do or when I've been to lazy or misdirected to do anything.

Problems arise from living in the dream and not getting on with life. Sure i'd love to be an amazing athlete with a perfect physique (hell, i'd settle for average physique). I'd also love to be able to solve advanced quantum physics in my sleep (again, i'd settle for basic fractions). I'm not either of those guys and I don't think I'm going to suddenly become them either. The key is to try and reconcile who you really are and what the best 'you' could be. You need to aim at the dream you but realise what's a real outcome and what's not.

You are what you are due to the choices you've made up till this point in time. Your physical and mental form will always mirror the lifestyle choices you make. If you enjoy your lifestyle then you have to realise that it's going to effect how you look and come to terms with that. If you sit at a computer all day and have in-door hobbies with little to no sport or exercise based ones then you're going to look the part. If you worry only about how you look and never read anything except maybe the comics then you'll reflect that also.

I strongly believe everyone has their little part to play as the person they're meant to be. Whatever that is you have to find for yourself. Or don't. One tip my old man gave me years ago-when I was looking to change jobs-was that when decision time rears it's head you have to go for it. If a decision is an easy one to make then more often than not it wasn't really a decision worth making.

Reconciling the 'who you are' versus the 'who you wish you were' can be a tough one and something I have to do everyday while cleaning my assault rifle...

quote for the day:
"Every man (or woman - editor note) has his own destiny:
the only imperative is to follow it, to accept it,
no matter where it leads him."
- Henry Miller (1891 - 1980)

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