The Becoming

I beat my machine
it's a part of me
it's inside of me
I'm stuck in this dream
it's changing me
I am becoming

the me that you know had some second thoughts
he's covered with scabs and he is broken and sore
the me that you know doesn't come around much
that part of me isn't here anymore

all pain disappears it's the nature of my circuitry
drowns out all I hear
there's no escape from this
my new consciousness
that me that you know used to have feelings
but the blood has stopped pumping
and he's left to decay
the me that you know is now made up of wires
and even when I'm right with you I'm so far away
I can try to get away
but I’ve strapped myself in
I can try to scratch away
the sound in my ears
I can see it killing away
all my bad parts
I don't want to listen
but it's all too clear

hiding backwards inside of me
I feel so unafraid
Annie, hold a little tighter
I might just slip away

it won't give up it wants me dead
goddamn this noise inside my head

- Nine Inch Nails

quote for the day:
"Be careful what you pretend to be because
you are what you pretend to be."
- Kurt Vonnegut